Tetralogy (Quadrilogy)

Once again, I turned to libraries and spent day and night searching and exploring among the books, hoping to find an answer to this question, but I gained nothing. Perhaps I was wasting my time. I thought I was an exception and could not enter these paths, and only special individuals could pass these ways. Or maybe we ordinary humans are the ones, and they are among the gods, whose absolute will can carry out any action. What should I do? I also have a goal and see within myself the power, potential, and drive to sit on the chair of leadership… Just like these respectable people, whom I have always respected, with their strange methods they used to deceive and exploit a nation, and this fascinated me. I never considered myself part of the nation… I considered myself of the same kind as those human-like gods, and an inner feeling compelled me to move forward until I reached the skies…